Mar 26, 2015

Cabaran itu seronok!

Alhamdulillah 27th March 2015, genap 6 bulan berada di bumi manchester,united kingdom, indicates my 6th months of phd journey and not to forget my 6th months without television!haha..Yes,we dont have tv pun at home. Entahlah tak rasa pun nak ada tv for now,tak rasa keperluan lagi,alhamdulillah internet connection yang super laju nie dah lebih memadai...tonton dapat tengok without buffering,nak download paper or anything..pap pap pap..siap download..best betul hehe masa saya buat attachement kat japan dulu pun macam nie,internet super laju siap boleh layan cerita "Dhia" lagi kat office,bak kata orang sambil menyelam minum air kan.

Kat uk nie, untuk tv memang kena ambil lesen,bukan macam malaysia ya,free,beli tv je habis cerita. Kat uk, lesen tv cost around 150 pound,cuba la darab dengan 5.5..hehe..mahal ke murah?Jangan main main tak nak ambil lesen tv, sini canggih ok and sekejap je pihak authority dapat detect kalau kat rumah ada tv, tapi tak bayar untuk lesen, baik bayar 150 pound dari kena denda beratus ratus pound kan. Wafiy pun okay sangat life takda tv, biasanya saya and husband akan buka channel kat youtube bagi wafiy tengok, ada limitation untuk wafiy sebab memang kena control untuk avoid kids addiction towards gadget, biasanya kalau untuk wafiy kami akan pasang lagu kanak kanak, alif ba ta and yes he enjoyed so much siap boleh menari menari pusing pusing depan lapton haha :)


Progress PhD saya pun alhamdulillah getting better,labworks memang dah start 2 weeks after saya register untuk PhD. Sambil buat literature review sambil try error untuk labworks. Ingat lagi saya ada tanya supervisor (SV) bila saya patut start labworks,simple je dia reply "as as soon as possible" haha..Nasib baik dah set dalam kepala labworks kena buat very soon, dalam lab saya pula memang ada postdoc yang tolong untuk labwork mula mula dulu. Saya berehat lebih kurang setahun after habis master dulu, so rasanya otak memang berkarat kot haha nak run experiment dalam 3 kali jugak dengan bantuan postdoc then baru confident nak run sendiri. Memandangkan field sekarang memang totally different dengan field master dulu, banyaklah journal,buku, article nak kena hadam kan, as a phd student,memang kena ada strong fundamental knowledge which can be improved through reading. READING READING READIING! Even my SV yang dah professor pun read satu journal sehari, inikan phd students,lagi la kena usaha lebih. Usaha tangga kejayaan. After all, phd is a continuous process, keep good relationship with SV (professional relationship). Saya biasanya kalau ada rasa tak confident dengan apa yang saya buat, terus saya akan email SV and cuba set time untuk jumpa dia for further discussion. Presentation results untuk phd students setiap dua minggu memang wajib,yang nie memang part saya suka,so SV memang akan keep track dengan progress kita,takdelah kita syok sendiri aje kan :)


Wajib ke publish paper? Mestilah!Still ingat apa yang SV masa master dulu bagitahu,"you have to publish your work, telling others and the rest of the world about your work,otherwise nobody knows about your work".Amboi mendalam betul haha..Dalam research studies, publication bertujuan untuk inform research work yang kita buat dan ia adalah satu contribution kita pada dunia penyelidikkan. Publication memang penting especially kalau untuk phd studies. Sebelum saya datang ke uk, saya ada dua kali formal interview dengan SV sekarang. SV dah tetapkan saya kena publish 3 journals paper sepanjang pengajian PhD nie.Nothing is impossible. Currently i am woking towards my first phd paper,inshaAllah :) Jatuh bangun semangat naik turun tu biasa, lab tak smooth tu biasa and macam macam lagi cabaran nak kena hadap. Yang penting kena kuat semangat, disiplin, attitude, positive, yakin dan tawakal. 


Seronok bila cerita pasal phd nie hehe. All the best untuk kawan kawan yang same boat dengan saya, we can make it inshaAllah, kita boleh, Malaysia boleh! 



wani,
Manchester,United Kingdom
11.13 pm







Mar 7, 2015

Blessing.

Assalamualaikum!
Dan lamanya take update blog hehe.Nie pun update through phone,senang sikit kan,kalau guna laptop,memang payah nak update blog,too much things i need to do,studies,online business,family. Erm,apa yang nak update nie ye,so far life kat sini alhamdulillah baik baik sahaja,bak kata pepatah makin serasi dengan bumi uk,specifically bumi manchester. Sekarang rasanya memang semua tengah winter,current temperature dalam 4 degree lebih kurang,memang menggigil tapi nyaman je rasa (maklumlah malaysia kan panas dan lembap sepanjang tahun hehe). Kadang kadang rindu pada panas malaysia.Rumah kat sini memang takde kipas or aircond,natural air gitu hehe Ingat lagi masa mula mula sampai manchester rasa macam pelik sebab takda bunyi kipas,rasa sunyi aje tapi skrg dah biasa,rasanya kalau dengan bunyi kipas sekarang mesti rasa pelik hehe

Soalan cepu emas, best ke belajar kat overseas? So far alhamdulillah saya rasa nie turning point terbesar dalam hidup saya bila saya buat decision untuk further phd abroad,saya selesa dengan budaya research kat sini yang mana setiap dua minggu saya kena present results pada supervisor dalam surgery meeting. Maksudnya supervisor dapat keep track dengan research kita,kalau ada yang deviate atau mungkin tak payah proceed,supervisor akan bagi suggestion and kita pun boleh bagitahu idea kita pada supervisor,in terms of financial untuk research memang langsung takda masalah kat sini ,part budget untuk research memang saya tak payah fikir, fokus je pada study,labworks, alhamdulillah sangat bersyukur :) Harapan saya agar perjalanan menuntut ilmu nie di rahmati Allah,cabaran haruslah ada kan,harap dapat dilalui dengan sabar dan tabah,memburu topi cendawan bukanlah satu journey yang easy peasy hehe

Mass cuti krismas pada disember lepas,saya dan family ambil peluang untuk travel ke scotland,memang rasa excited sangat sebab saya tahu scotland memang cantik, kami sekeluarga travel ke edinburgh, glasgow dan highland part. Walapun sekarang waktu siang pendek sangat and malam panjang,bukanlah halangan untuk travel,perjalanan dari manchester ke glasgow lebih kurang 4 jam setengah by roadtrip,memang seronok dapat tengok pemandangn indah sepanjang perjalanan dengn bukit bukau, biri biri comel,i feel blessed,alhamdulillah.Rasa macam tak percaya pun ada hehe.jom saya share gambar gambar untuk tatapan blog saya :)

Spectacular Edinburgh town :)


 Along the way to glenshee ski centre

 Edinburgh Castle


 Snow storm!!Look at wafiy, he's afraid of heavy snow hehe


2 hours driving from Edinburgh.

Oct 17, 2014

Aku di Manchester

Assalamualaikum!

Alhamdulillah aku sekeluarga telah selamat sampai di manchester pada 27 september 2014. Terima kasih tak terhingga buat keluarga tersayang yang menghantar kami di klia baru baru ini.Pejam celik dah hampir sebulan kami berada di bumi manchester,united kingdom.Macam tak percaya pun ada.Kadang kadang monolog sendiri,betul ke aku kat uk sekarang hehe....

Suasana di klia baru baru nie pun tenang alhamdulillah..cuma mak mentuaku dan adik ipar yang nangis..aku tahu mereka bakal merindu satu satunya cucu di dalam family kami, wafiy. Adik iparku memang rapat dengan wafiy. Pandai dia entertain wafiy. In fact, kalau wafiy dengan mamacik dia, dengan aku pun dia taknak..hehe..budak budak nie bagi aku memang kena pandai layan dorang..inshaAllah kamcing nanti.

InshaAllah aku bakal berada di bumi uk nie selama 3 tahun atau 3 tahun setengah.Akan aku cuba untuk habiskan perjalanan phd nie secepat mungkin.Suami dah berkorban kerjaya selama 3 tahun untuk teman aku ke sini.syukur Allah permudahkan. Sekurang kurangnya aku tahu suami akan jaga wafiy dengan baik bila aku kena pergi school and masuk ofis. Cuaca kat sini memang sejuk sekarang. Weather transition.Suhu lebih kurang 9 ke 10 celcius. Memang baju tebal sepanjang masa. Aku mula merindui kepanasan malaysia..hehe..aku suka cuaca sejuk tapi kalau terlalu sejuk memang tak tahan di buatnya..toilet dah macam rumah kedua musim sejuk macam nie.

Supervisor aku pun baik dan sangat supportive. I like the way he handle his students. Mostly students under supervision dia international students. So memang sv aku dah tahu dan boleh baca kami semua macam mana. Yang paling penting semua students dia grad, ada yang 4 tahun, ada 3 tahun setengah..tu semua terpulang pada student tu sendiri untuk handle cara bekerja macam mana. Aku harap dapat buat yang terbaik. Dengan adanya suami dan anak di sisiku, aku  berdoa agar Allah permudahkan langkah ini dan berikan kami sejahteraan dan keselamatan di sini. Aku tahu banyak lagi cabaran yang akan datang. Doakan aku sekeluarga baik baik saja di sini.inshaAllah.


Sep 7, 2014

wafiy is turning one!

Today is 7th september 2014. Exactly 1 year has passed. My baby boy muhammad wafiy auzaie is turning 1 year old. Alhamdulillah. Reminiscing the throwback journey, I still strongly remember all those pain i need to endure during labor..hehe..the contraction,huh..very painful,unable to describe it. Maybe i need to get over the contraction pain before planning for second baby..hehe..whenever i think about contraction it gave goosebumps. Not to scare all of you but just to share what i've gone through :)


A day before wafiy was born, i still actively went to MME department in UIA to settle few things regarding my study leave. No contraction or braxton hicks at all,at that time my pregnancy was full termed,37 weeks. I drove alone to uia,walking around,eating like usual. But i still remember on that day,i explore the 4th level building using stairs! No lift at all..haha..Just to get some light exercise so that i could give birth faster. It was true! on 6th september after subuh prayer, i felt regular contraction which im not sure the true or false alarm. It was so frequent and i felt uncomfortable.I took my cellphone,calling my twin sister (my personal doctor..hehe) to confirm should i go the hospital or just have a rest at home.erm.. the funny part was when i told my husband about my "stomachache" he confidently said im hungry hahaha..acceptable as this was our first baby :p My twin taught me how to count the contraction and exactly this was not the false alarm. It's more like PMS. My stomach got cramp and the position of sujud really calm me down. At 10 am,we decided to go to al islam specialist hospital in kampung baru to see our gynae,dr norlida. I like her so much,such a graceful doctor that i ever met !

As we reached the hospital, i took the registration number and sat at the front chair next to the counter. My instinct told me that my baby gonna pop out so soon! scared yet i feel so nervous and excited. Nervous and scared to imagine how painful the contraction would be and excited to meet and greet my little khalifah..hehe..it was true, my cervix opening was 3 cm!! I was admitted immediately to the ward as dr.norlida told me that im gonna pop out so soon..likelihood on that night or early in the next morning.. the adventure has just begun..

To be frank, the contraction still bearable at first,however when it hits 7 cm,homaigod, it was like my stomach had intense cramp!! The gap from 3cm to 7 cm took about 5 hours. And yes i was alone at the hospital as husband need to go back to have some rest. Man is not allowed to be in the ward for overnight. When my opening reached 7 cm, the midwife told me that i should informed my husband to come to the hospital as im now in active labor phase. NERVOUS OKEH!!! Mama and papa in kelantan meanwhile mak and my sister in law came to visit me when i was admitted to the ward.

The labor room at al-islam hospital is really nice.I dont feel scared..haha..because it is a small room but fully equipped. The recitation of Quran made my heart remained calm.alhamdulillah..my amniotic fluid was actually broken by the midwife..alhamdulillah again it was not painful..the strength of the contraction was extremely painful when my cervix dilated to 9 cm..Ya Allah my pain threshold had reach the maximum limit..i was crying...tried hard to recite zikir nabi yunus...and yes i squeezed my husband's hand very strong..i dont remember the breathing technique...nothing i could remember at that time..the only thing in my mind was  to push the baby out..

But i strongly remember the breathing technique to push the baby out...thanks so much to my beloved twin...alhamdulillah i managed to push the baby out in less than half an hour....Allahuakbar....baby in a good condition..muhammad wafiy auzaie bin mohd ridzwan :) 

I was given the UV light ray to make sure the stitches fully dried as well as to accelerate the healing process..It was good because my stitches did not painful and im able to walk like usual..just in a slow motion,of course..hehe...

Second baby?Let me forget the contraction experience dulu..haha

Thanks Allah for everything :)



Quick update

Finally i managed to rent a house in manchester, inshaAllah our future house will be in victoria park, manchester for the next 3 years. Thanks so much to my fellow friend for helping me a lot. Only Allah can repay all your good deeds. I will update when i will be moving to the uk as for now my family and i are waiting for the visa appointment. We are planning to use priority visa service whereby we have to pay extra rm580 for each applicant. This huge amount cannot be reimbursed and yes we have to use our own money. What to do right? I choose this way hehe..later we have to think about packing, moving from our current house and many more. Meanwhile, my husband unpaid leave has been approved by the department and his last day of working will be on 15th september..thanks dear for you sacrification. InshaAllah kita berhijrah sementara untuk kebaikan :) 

Sep 6, 2014

Road to manchester : research proposal presentation

Finally i am done with my research proposal presentation with assoc.prof dr.asan gani at student affairs department yesterday! Syukur alhamdulillah. The presentation went well and it was a one to one presentation. I requested the presentation to be held earlier before i leaving to the uk. Actually for academic trainee from uia who will be pursuing master/phd, they have to attend research methodology course organized by centre of postgraduate student (CPS) and it is compulsory! The certificate just valid for two years and that's why i have to re-take the course. This is 5 days course man!!haha..at first i dont want to attend this course because of my typical postgraduate thinking that i already took this similar course 3 years ago. But then,i realized i already forgot most of the content (i never flip on those files related to the course, end means end :p) and strongly believe that this course will be very useful for my phd studies. So throw away all those negatives thinking :)

While im away for the course, husband took care of wafiy and  brought him to the office..haha..thanks dear! Luckily his working time is a bit flexilable and everyone at the office knew wafiy. I actually wanted to send wafiy to uia daycare. However, no luck on me as there is no vacancy on that particular date. Quite frustrated because i wanted to expose wafiy with different environment by mix around with other kids at the daycare. 5 days should be enough for beginning right ?im not that paranoid anymore haha..semangat nak hantar wafiy to daycare :)

Regarding my presentation, somehow i hardly believe that i managed to come out with phd proposal on my own!!syukur Ya Allah. I still remember how i cracked my head few months back reading all those related journals to come out with research questions! I tell you it's very tough!! Alhamdulillah, Dr asan can cleary see the issue that i wanted to address in the problem statement as well as my main objectives. I just to need to make some adjustment about my forth objective. Really shined up my day :) Then he asked me about my contribution from this phd research project and definitely i tried my best to convince him about my future planning. May Allah make it a smooth sailing inshaAllah. I have to know my research direction to avoid any confusion later either me myself got confuse or my supervisor. On the other hand, i already can see the novelty of my phd project. Hopefully it works well inshaAllah.

Thanks dr asan for your advise which i will surely remember it forever! Not everyone has the opportunity to pursue phd abroad therefore i have to take this golden opportunity to seek knowledge as much as possible,learning their research culture, mix around with the native people over there, stay away from malaysian because dr asan told me there are so many malaysian in manchester (haha..i got what u mean sir!). And not to forget,family is always the priority as well as your study..inshaAllah im looking forward the new path of my life so soon!



Aug 14, 2014

Road to manchester : btn course

5 days been away from dearest son was such a terrible feelings..tambah tambah wafiy still fully breastfeedings..but i have to attend that compulsory course organized by birotatanegara (BTN)..wajib!!!..few weeks before leaving to the course,i put endless effort to pump as much as i could!! every seconds i was thinking about pumping..haha..typical new mother..want the best to her baby..my milk production wasnt so good actually...so sad..perhaps because i seldom pumping and prefer to direct feeding my baby..sometimes laziness is the main barrier that hinder myself from frequent pumping..hehe..i admit im quite lazy to pump..i did understand the concept of demand and supply but to practice is a big challenge..sometimes i did mention to my husband we should buy formula milk when im away for the course..see the mind set already wrong..i shouldnt say that way..i should be positive..i always worry my milk is not suffice..huhu..but my always positive husband convinced me that i can do it...i can store enough milk before leaving to the course..big role of husband in bf journey..support and action should come in parallel..

btn is such a good course which i really recommended for everyone..suka suka hati nak recommend..haha..i never ever been in long patriotic course..haha..i taught it was boring,strict,dull,sleepy,not interesting..see..negative again!!!!but i was totally wrong..in fact this course has widened my knowledge,increased my confident level, very very interesting unless for the perlembagaan part,i fell asleep during the talk..haha...i couldnt open my eyes..i was dozing off....i was too tired or the content of the talk was so heavy and need deep focus..but my roomate who working as a lawyer told me that the talk was interesting..hehe..

Since the btn course was held in the month of  Ramadhan, the schedule wasnt so strict and quite many activities were cancelled and replaced by appropriate ones. For instance, at night session,there was no ceramah because of terawikh prayer which can be performed at walking distance masjid next to the camp.it was such a big relief..at least we can grab the pahala of terawikh although we were in the course...after terawikh there was no more activity..hehe..

We were divided into small group and my group consists of 10 member (if im not mistaken) and each of us came from different background like doctors, engineers, lecturers and teacher.It was good to know people from different field as different experiences and opinions were shared by them.Some of the group members already in their 50s and their thoughts really make sense.Our group consists of malay,chinese and india,satu malaysia!!! During latihan dalam kumpulan (LDK), we were having some sort of activities like discussion, debate, short lecture and games. It was fun!! I got to fully understand about federal constitution (haha..i never ever care about this thing before), what is jus soli all about, what is our right as a malay, history and many more.It widened up my knowledge seriously.alhamdulillah